What's happenin?

Currently enjoying B1A4's new song, which like almost all the new songs out seem like a bunch of random songs in one. First time I heard something like that was B.A.P's No Mercy. Yeah was I the only one who found the huge contrast in the parts of songs weird? Anyways Jaye was going to do B1A4's song so I decided I could spend a few hours heading over and checking it out. In a turn of events I ended up teaching which I did not expect doing, especially since I haven't taught in ages. And I haven't even learnt it enough to teach. Luckily I had 15 minutes to learn it properly.

Had three students, one of which was a total new person. They seemed to cope well, I mean I wasn't prepared mentally and knowledgeably but I did the best I could. Luckily the dance wasn't too hard, I ended up teaching the entire song, though only 2/3 students found it easy. Which makes me wonder how I should help the other person, do I slow the entire class down for the one person at the expense of the others? Or is it a balance thing?

I've learned a lot from Alan not just in popping but in dance and teaching. I kinda wanted to try out some teaching methods like some kind of experiment but yeah I was rushed, didn't even get to stretch the class so it felt weird if I tried to do so. Maybe next time, whenever that is haha.

On the uni side, I have another quiz to do on Friday, hopefully I'll be ready by then. Going to hit the library every day after class, including Wednesday which sucks but I have to make that sacrifice now. Anyways Friday would be more fun anyway, probably. If only I didn't have to deal with 3 labs before that quiz. Luckily Ling let me use his excel template so I didn't have to do any prework. Now I have to deal with Physical Chem and Physiology lab. I hope PHSL doesn't pull another random quiz which I totally failed last time.

I noticed I used the word lucky in this post a lot. Which makes me think of how lucky I am to have friends I can count on and etc. But there's the back in my head thing of doubting that I deserve it all. I feel so weak these days, I just want to break out of it.

So out of it

1:45AM now, I should be working on my lab reports due on Monday but I'm so out of it. I have to complete five reports and yeah that includes writing out the results and completing the questions which I am totally lazy to do right now. So far I've managed to gather them up and put them on the floor to organise. At the same time I'm converting footage from kpop summit which is taking forever and it's quite a drag. Wouldn't have this problem if we stopped using tape cameras. But yeah we all agreed not to use that anymore. I suppose that this is another pressure on me to do things but not much I can do to make things easier, this is the work that must be done. I signed up for this. Did I mention how out of it I feel? lol.

I don't know if it's that second year is harder or that I'm being more lazy, but I feel like I'm going to get lower grades than I ever got. Not that it worries me right now, I'll see how it turns out at the end of semester. But for the moment, seems like there are so many things happening right now and I can't keep up. So many problems. I just want to rest for a bit. Maybe do some exercise.

Pretty excited for Iron Man 3 though.